November 2016 – wild land

I’ve been thinking.. 11.26.16

I spent the day in coffee shops and parks, surrounded by friends. Talking about future projects, taking pictures, and laughing, lots of laughing. I realized how often I turn to friends for support or motivation.

I’ve been thinking about the future. My mind wanders to my next destination and doesn’t seem to stop. Moving once has made me want to move again, all over the country, out of the country, to be honest if I could live on the moon I probably would. When I envision a future, I don’t see a job or a specific place. I see myself with a camera surrounded by people I care about. So where exactly does that leave me?

I’m comfortable enough right now to leave these questions unanswered, but I have to wonder, when will I figure it out?

I also noticed I fall in love with photography more and more each day. Especially when it involves people who inspire me.

The next few pictures are of my friend Mimi, easily one of the most incredible people I know. (also notice the eyeliner my friends, take notes)

Home and things. (Let’s Chat)

The last few weeks have been not only busy, they’ve been exhausting and kind of difficult. With the election aftermath, the beginning of studying for finals, registration for spring classes, I’ve been stressed, sad, and to be completely honest sometimes very lazy and unmotivated.

This past week was Thanksgiving, so I decided to come home to Florida to spend the holiday with my family and friends. That was the best thing I could have done to relax and re-engerize. Coming home is kind of like a double edged sword for a few reasons,

You get to see everyone you miss, but saying goodbye at the end of the week sucks.
You get to relax while you’re home, but theres always that voice in the back of your head reminding you its ending soon.
Have I mentioned I hate saying goodbye?

I did find plenty of new inspiration though. That’s the great part of having the incredible friends I do, they’re all insanely inspiring.

I managed to do a photoshoot with some of my favorite people yesterday (those pictures should be up soon), I got to go to all of my favorite restaurants and even take some time to myself to just drive around and appreciate the warm weather.

All in all, coming home was a good idea. It gave me some time to really reflect on how happy I am that I made the decision to move. Being 1,200 miles away from the people I grew up with is one of the scariest things I have ever done, but it was the only way for I myself to start to really grow up. As someone who used to be terrified of change, being comfortable with it now is huge progress. I think that’s something everyone should experience.

I’m sorry about the lack of posts, but I am entirely inspired and ready to make some great content in the next few weeks. (pics above not mine, but they make me happy)

endless love,

matenia

what’s next? (nyc peaceful protests, election, etc.)

I’m leaving this here with very minimal written content, to simply allow the video to speak for itself.

Stay safe and remember you are loved, wanted, and protected.

endless love my friends,

matenia

Go ahead, Take a break

Another week has passed and it was easily one of the busiest ones. Not only was school stress insane, this week was also the election. All my social media has been filled with arguments and political campaigns. After the week I’ve had, I need a break. I’m sure you do too.

Here’s another little playlist I’ve been listening to for the last few days. My playlist, drivin’, has truly helped me escape for a little each day, I hope you enjoy it. (pictures not mine)

Drivin’….or sitting or laying down or anything really

Famous- Kanye West

Wild- Troye Sivan

CRZY-Kehlani

Smoke Break-Chance The Rapper

Rich $ex-Future

White Teeth Teens- Lorde

Controlla- Drake

Thinkin’ bout you- Frank Ocean

Juke Jam- Chance The Rapper

White Iverson- Post Malone

Gemini Feed- Banks

F N Sexy- JAHKOY

Say It- Flume, Tove Lo

One Night- Lil Yachty

Broccoli- D.R.A.M

Go Flex- Post Malone

Hope you enjoy it friends 🙂

endless love,

matenia

Feeling Uninspired ?

I can’t tell you how many days I wake up entirely uninspired. I have no desire to get out of bed, let alone do anything productive. On days like these I turn to reading, viewing, and listening to things that make me happy.

Happiness, in my opinion, is one step closer to inspiration. When I’m content and comfortable, I’m way more open to anything really.

Getting out of my dorm is probably one of the biggest ways I get inspired. Living in New York City, I’m constantly in awe of the people and things around me. I really recommend going and exploring your city, inspiration will find you, but you have to make an effort.

The world around me motivates me to work, explore, and become inspired, however there are always moments when I feel I simply don’t measure up to everything people around me are doing. At times like those I take a step back and just think about how much progress I’ve made in the last month, 3 months, and even year.

Comparing yourself to others is a double edged sword, because while it could inspire you and kind of kick your ass into gear, it could also get you down and make you feel inadequate, which is not the case at all. Everyone is on their OWN journey. Allow the achievements of others to be a light towards what your goal in the future is.

I also tend to draw lots of inspiration from friends. Spending nights in, ordering pizza, and playing cards against humanity is truly a necessity because it always leads to some of the most influential and important conversations I’ve had. They’ve helped me come to realizations about what I want to do and probably most importantly, the type of person I want to be.

Now, I’m no expert and I’m nowhere near perfect. That’s the great part of life, you don’t need to be 100% all the time. Ride the wave out and inspiration will come sooner than you know, sometimes in the most unexpected places. Remember to keep your heart and mind open to new people and new things.

endless love,

matenia

pt. 3

a few pictures from this week.